name. jordan castro
1. what is your present state of mind?
turnt up. ready. focused. it’s 6:14AM. i’m sitting at a big ass desk in a leather chair in the office room at my friend ziggy’s parents’ house doing things on my laptop. i smoked ~6 blunts earlier and am currently on ~40mg adderall, ~2.5mg xanax, & ~20.4 oz sugar free red bull while drinking canada dry brand ginger ale and deer park brand bottled water. i spent the night with the squad, playing music, talking, writing, recording, turning up, etc. My YG zach is going off to school on saturday, so tonight was kind of our “last shabang,” so to speak. feel inspired. also realizing that it’s been a while since i’ve smoked a cigarette (brb).
2. where were you born?
hillcrest hospital in mayfield heights, ohio.
3. where do you live now?
4. where would you like to live?
[somewhere besides my parents’ house], ohio.
5. do you think you’re interesting?
i don’t think i’m interesting or not interesting.
6. how is your love life?
married to the game.
7. what were you like as a child?
at age 4, i told my parents i didn’t believe in santa claus. at age 8, i’d go to barbecue’s at my best friend thomas’ house and freestyle rap in the basement with his brother “big mike” and his gang/friends from cleveland (thomas, many years later, ended up stealing $800 from me during [illegal activity removed]). i first got drunk and high at age 11. my parents tell me i was “a sweet, loving brother.” i played baseball/basketball until 7th grade, which was the same year i got caught stealing a three-six mafia cd & skipping school to go to the skate park. at age 12, i started reading literature daily. at age 14, writing daily.
8. what did you eat today?
2x banana, 1x cliff bar, 1x piece cheese pizza, 2x ‘bite’ of a chipotle burrito.
9. have you ever created culture or art?
10. do you like drinking alcohol or using drugs?
yes, to some degree. i feel like addiction can be really shitty, via experience - i’ve been struggling with it recently, re painkillers, and used to drink daily from ages 16-17. i think i have what most would call an “addictive personality.”
i think i like certain drugs in terms of certain things, but also understand how they can be harmful for certain people, including myself, in certain contexts, etc.
11. what kind of people do you hate?
people who aren’t ‘real,’ in my opinion. people who use terms like ‘good,’ ‘bad,’ ‘right,’ and/or ‘wrong’ unsarcastically. people who are actively concerned about things like being ‘hip,’ ‘relevant,’ ‘popular,’ etc. people who say or do things with the intention of ‘hurting’ me or people who i like. people who try to ‘capitalize’ on or ‘exploit,’ in my view, certain lifestyles or cultures that they haven’t lived before said lifestyle/culture became ‘popular.’ people who tell the police information that can get other people in trouble. the list goes on. i don’t know. i don’t think i ‘hate’ [aforementioned people]. i encourage people to think/say/do what they want, i just don’t like being around or thinking about or interacting with certain people. i don’t know. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIh0MMm6TyE
12. what are your goals, if you have any?
move out of my parents’ house, finish my short story collection/novel, feel less shitty about myself, experience things, etc.
13. do you have any depressing stories about your life?
14. who are your favorite authors?
15.what will you be doing ten years from now?
what i want to be doing and what i will be doing in ten years could be completely different things. i could be dead in ten years. if not, i’ll be writing and playing music. ‘til the day i die i’ll be doing me though, one thing about it two things for sure.